[ there's a heavy beat. a heavier beat, as he processes as the apology (undeserved). he doesn't want him to give anything he hasn't pulled for. he doesn't want him to give him that kindness. not when he cannot return it. not when he can give him nothing. not when -- (and it rests like a weight. it rests like a burden. it rests like a knot he cannot shake or disentangle.) and he did not want a part of it. he does not want a part of it. (and it pulls at something he does not wish to think of. it pulls at something he does not want to think of. it wakes and diminishes. it burns up and freezes. sharp.)
don't think of me. please. don't look at me. please. don't--]
... You didn't. [ and it pushes back burden. it pushes back kindness. it pushes back. and he builds a wall with words. he builds a wall away from him. away from others. away from -- and eventually: ] Yeah.
( phone call. )
don't think of me. please. don't look at me. please. don't--]
... You didn't. [ and it pushes back burden. it pushes back kindness. it pushes back. and he builds a wall with words. he builds a wall away from him. away from others. away from -- and eventually: ] Yeah.